- Analyze situation
- Learn from it
- Move on
The amount of stuff I have learned from this one particular event and from the person themself has been a great deal! So I thought i would share with you this whole event.
In PART 1, I will tell you the story. In PART 2 I will analyze what happened and where I went wrong in the situation. PART 3 will then discuss what I have learned from the situation. Hopefully these parts will be pretty straightforward, but I may combine certain parts and certain times.
Here is the story:
It was around May time and I had just finished college with very good grades, I was on a high. I haven't been a particularly outgoing person and have always been very shy. Something happened that May time and I wasn't myself in a good way. I was chatting to all my friends on facebook, text etc, I was going out a lot more etc etc. Above all things I suddenly became very confident and didn't care if anyone liked me or didn't liked me if someone didn't agree with me I was prepared to express my views. it was brilliant.
One of these people on my facebook took a particular interest to me as we started chatting on facebook, til it became text, til it became msn also. I had found out that he went to my secondary school and was in the same year as me, but we even said this to each other - we didn't know the other existed and it was nice that we were talking now despite not knowing one another in secondary school.
This became a constant thing. We were constantly texting, emailing and facebooking and I thought nothing of it except the fact that I loved talking to him. He mentioned at one point that he could 'make me happy', and that had always stuck in my head. I didn't find him attractive at first ( as I had seen pictures etc) but it was fun and light.
This happened for a while. We finally decided that we wanted to meet and we did. I could tell he had some interest in me as he could not stop looking at me and we chatted and walked all day together. He was much better looking in person, we chatted about each other, all the things you would normally do if you had met someone for the first time and it was really nice.
He was always the one who initiated a text, an email, facebook comment and I would always be the one to respond. It was really nice. During this time someone had asked me out called Nick and I had said no I do not want to go out with you. Now at this point I was starting to realise that I was becoming attracted to lets call him Liam. (The one who was texting, emailing me).
We met a second and last time. This day was the best and worse day of my life with a guy. Liam came round mine to play a few ps2 games and during this time he started to flirt with me. We went to have something to eat in mcdonalds and started fooling around and throwing lettuce at one another. Then we went to the beach....
We were really flirting with one another on the beach and this went on for ages until I kissed him. (Best kiss i have ever had! but lets not go too personal). We kissed for a long time and when he stopped, he started to shake. Now I have had another guy shake when I have kissed him and his name was Myles. I asked Myles why did you shake when I kissed you and he said it was because he had kissed the most amazing person of his life. (Myles is an ex of mine and a very good friend). In Liams case, it was either he had never kissed a girl or he really liked me and I knew he did because we ended up hugging for a long time after it.
He then walked me back to mine and started to hug me again and he wouldn't leave. He didn't want to. He eventually did and I never knew that that would be the last time I 1. Would ever see him look at me like that and 2. The last time I would ever see him.
I quickly went to my bedroom, sat myself down, recollected the whole day and said to myself 'I really like him' this was the day I had fallen in love with Liam.
No comments:
Post a Comment